Easily Influenced

What or Who is actually influencing you?

I am easily influenced like a kid with an under developed Frontal Cortex. I look to the right, I want that. I look to the left, I want that. I look up, I want that. I look down, I want that. I look forward, I want that. I look back, well damn, at least I don’t want that. Although, who doesn’t look back and want some of what was. For me it’s certain feelings I want back from the past not necessarily the time or the place. Giving birth for example, I want to feel that again and again if I could because it changed me. Meeting my children for the first time is a feeling I access as many times as I can because it was the most influential thing I have ever done. Influenced by my hormones, floods of feelings pumped and endorsed by Oxytocin. I learned to Mother by tapping into how I was influenced by my Mother, my sister and my family. I can remember feeding my children their first solid foods and being influenced by my childhood flavors and delight around food. It was a grounding experience to feed their brand new palates food that made me happy and recipes that came from the heart.